Monthly Archives: December 2019

Finding Comfort in Being Uncomfortable

Currently, I am finishing my Fall 2019 semester of my senior year of college. However, it wasn’t until the end of my sophomore year that I fully declared my major in Spanish. Between graduating high school and entering college, I took a gap semester to Central America. Therefore, I entered UMASS in the Spring semester. Not only was I unsure of what I wanted to study, but I also wanted to be involved in an experience involving learning about other cultures. I additionally wanted to focus on my own personal growth. Initially, I was extremely nervous going to a location that I was unfamiliar to. When I mentioned to other people where I was going for my gap semester, often times, their reaction wasn’t as positive as I anticipated. This was commonly affiliated with their ideas regarding safety in such areas. The initial responses I got from other people about where I was going provoked high anxiety and doubt in continuing with the program. However, it was one of the best things I have ever done. Continue reading

Reach out to your professors and advisors, they are here to help you succeed!

When I first got to UMass, I was very shy about advocating for myself. When I had any type of issue, I would usually avoid it instead of talking to my advisor (Luis Marentes). I have since come to realize the importance of meeting with advisors and appreciate all Luis has done for me over the past 4 years I’ve been here. As I’ve gone through many ups and downs during my time at UMass, I think the most important thing that I’ve learned is to not be afraid to advocate for myself. If I don’t do it, no one else will do it for me.

This semester is my last semester at UMass. This past September, I was enrolled in an intensive intermediate Italian course. It turns out that I hated it and needed to find a new class to switch into fast before the end of the add-drop period. With no luck finding anything on my own, I decided to reach out to Patricia Gubitosi, who I’ve had the pleasure of having as a professor and advisor. I told her about my dilemma, and she put me in contact with Danielle Thomas of the Spanish and Portuguese department. Professor Thomas does a lot of community work with Spanish speaking communities in and around Amherst. When I met with Professor Thomas, she told me that I could do an independent study with her. I had no idea what an independent study was before our meeting. I honestly thought it was something that graduate students do. During our meeting, she told me she was working on a research study, looking at the linguistic backgrounds of native and non-native Spanish speakers. She proposed that I could help with the study by doing data collection. Basically, my job would be interviewing Spanish speaking participants and doing several speaking activities with them. At first, I was a little bit nervous because I’m naturally a timid person, and feel like I’m not the best at talking with people. But I wanted to give it a chance because I knew it would get me out of my comfort zone. Continue reading

Why a Spanish Major if I am a Puerto Rican?

I was placed in an ESL (English as a second language) class in third or fourth grade. I was unaware at the fact that I was going to lose my ability to speak the Spanish language fluently. I learned grammar rules, wrote essays and conversed with the teacher in English. I eventually became “proficient” in English and was placed in regular classes with monolingual children.
At the beginning of Fall semester 2018, I met with my advisor about studying abroad in Spain, Salamanca. (I was currently taking the 240 Spanish course.) She said to me in Spanish, “Why are you taking that Spanish course? You already know Spanish.” I was embarrassed to tell her that I barely knew anything about the grammar rules in Spanish. I spoke back to her in Spanish making sure to avoid making any mistakes, afraid that she would figure me out. She proceeds, “you can easily take the Spanish proficiency test and receive all the credits you need because you are a native speaker.” I believed her and made the appointment to take the test the following week. (My family speaks Spanish; I attend a Hispanic church and I can do what I call “defend myself” in conversations.) Continue reading

Working in Spain over the summer- YMCA Spain

When I decided to go abroad to San Sebastian, Spain, I knew that five months in the country was not going to be enough for me. I wanted to come back fluent and wanted to be able to spend real time there.

I decided to speak with Luis Marentes about things that I could do over the summer such as jobs and/or potential volunteering opportunities. Luis put me in contact with a UMass alum who now works with YMCA Spain. I emailed him and was given the job to work in June in a full English immersion camp in Priego and then to spend July in the camp in Oto which was an English camp but more so just a normal summer camp. Continue reading

Fulbright Plans after Graduation

What is Fulbright?

I am graduating very soon, and while I am very excited for what is to come, I am also nervous to start a new chapter since UMASS has been such a great place to call home for the past couple of years. UMASS has also prepared me very well for post-grad life and has supported me greatly in making post-graduation plans. There are many options after graduation, it can become very stressful. Should I go straight to grad school? Should I get a job right away? What jobs should I look for? I went through these questions in my mind. I always knew I wanted to travel and live abroad for a while, but also wanting to add to my teaching resume. I discovered Fulbright, which is a highly competitive government based scholarship award. Recent graduates can either do research in another country or be an ETA or English Teaching Assistant. I applied to be an ETA in Spain which is a great fit with my Spanish major and education minor. The process of applying is pretty lengthy and time-consuming so I highly recommend giving yourself plenty of time to apply. I cannot recommend enough applying through UMASS, you can apply at large with the rest of the nation, but ONSA, the Office of National Scholarship Advisement will support every step of the way. They read your essays and will answer any questions or doubts you have. They are located right here on campus, in the honors college. Continue reading

Learning about my own culture at UMass.

I transferred to this University from a small community college in Springfield during my Junior year. If you didn’t know already, Springfield is a city  heavily populated by Puerto Ricans. I was born in Puerto Rico and brought to the United States at the age of two. I have been surrounded by other Puerto Ricans all my life. Therefore, when I sat in Worcester’s dining common having dinner with a group of friends, I was unsettled due to the following experience. There was a lot of laughter and conversation at the table. I saw a student walk into the dining common in search of someone. He was holding a pen and notebook in his hand. I accidently made eye contact and he took that as an invitation to walk towards my table. He apologized for interrupting our conversation and proceeded to ask us if we would take a few minutes to fill out his questionnaire. My friend who was sitting across from me decided to help him. While she was filling out the questionnaire, the man stared at me for a few seconds before asking me,       “What are you?” Continue reading

When you think it’s the end of world, it is really only the beginning

Growing up I was always very rigid, small changes to plans would make me upset. This made me very hard on myself and I was a perfectionist. For me things were black and white, good or bad, right or wrong, there was never any gray area. This helped me in some ways like with academics, but hurt me in a lot of other ways. I always wanted to be in control of everything and hated feeling like I wasn’t. This mindset led to a lot of isolation. I spent a lot of time alone with my thoughts and they told me I wasn’t good enough, smart enough, thin enough, or worth anything. These thoughts only led to more isolation. Continue reading

Spanish STEP Program

I arrived at college thinking, like many freshmen, I knew what I wanted to do. I wish I could say that I had known but truthfully, my road to choosing Spanish as my primary major took me three years to figure out. I always double majored in Spanish because I knew that at the end of it all, I would end up being a Spanish teacher but, I thought I needed something “more solid” to go alongside the double-major. I came into UMass as a Nutrition major, minoring in Spanish, in order to “solve world hunger”. I soon realized that this was not the way to go about such an enormous problem and also, that I was horrible at science. Continue reading

Sustainable Tourism

For my integrative experience, I took a gap semester and traveled with a gap year program called Carpe Diem. With Carpe, I traveled in a small group to Guatemala, Nicaragua, Costa Rica, and Honduras for a total of 3 months. I lived in Guatemala and Nicaragua for 5 weeks each, and then stayed in CR and Honduras for only a week each. My trip consisted of traveling to and staying in a new place just about every week, which allowed me to see and experience a ton. During my experience, I learned a lot about sustainable tourism, sustainable volunteerism, and sustainable travel, and I wanted to share some things specifically about sustainable volunteerism, because service learning is something that many students consider when thinking about an integrative experience. Continue reading

Learning the Value of Connections Through Language

When I went to college, I was certain that I wanted to be a doctor. I had taken Spanish classes from 7th-12th grade, and I planned to continue to take them, mostly per the suggestion of my parents. I completed three semesters at the University of New Hampshire studying Biomedical Sciences, on the pre-med track, and planning to minor in Spanish. During my time there, I toyed with the idea of changing my major a few times, and went through the typical add-drop period taking some natural resource conservation classes, or some sustainable agriculture classes, but ultimately ended up sticking with my original plan. I spent my time at UNH generally unhappy, mostly because I refused to put myself out there upon arrival in college. I was shy and was uninterested in having what I thought to be forced conversations with people, so I isolated myself and ended up often being pretty lonely. I applied to transfer, but then doubted my gut feelings and tried to push them away, convincing myself that I simply had to give UNH more of a chance. Finally, right around the approach of finals during my sophomore year fall, I woke up one morning and something just snapped. I was done being in this cycle of misery that I was caught in. I opened my laptop and submitted an application to transfer to UMass for the following spring semester. I called my mom after the fact, and told her what I’d done, and she was supportive. Continue reading